Entitlement and Perfectionism
One of the smartest people, Biblically, that I ever knew once said (my loose paraphrase), "When I experience a trial, I say to the Lord, 'Lord, please help me to learn the lesson I am supposed to learn this time around so I don't have to do this again.'"
And yet, when I was going through a kind of rough day (yesterday) with my kids sick at home and all, what did I do once I had alone time? I got them all to bed for a nap and came down the stairs and said to myself, "Now, I am going to relax and spend some time on the computer...(first mistake...see here...) I would like to put a counter on my blog that counts down to the end of lent/Resurrection Sunday. Where did I find that the last time?"
Looking
looking
looking
dink
dink
dink
for over an hour...
(second mistake...see here)
Entitlement and perfectionism...
I am entitled to do this because my day, on the whole, has not been pleasant, and I will allow myself to be caught up in this little rabbit trail until it is completed (perfectionism) even though it is worthless in the grand scheme of things and it is eating away at my only flexible time.
Do you care how many days there are until Lent is over? I suspect you do not...
So, again last night and this morning I was ripping through my Bible Study so I would be finished in time for the discussion.
And it was excellent.
And just what I needed...all about making a plan of attack to get yourself together spiritually.
HOW are you going to make time for a quiet time?
HOW are you going to remember to pray in your day?
etc.
I love that kind of stuff...and yet, there I was yesterday, dinking around...
So that I don't wallow in the regret of this, I am purposing now to do my lesson over some days...in the morning...before everyone else gets up.
There...another problem solved...check back with me on March 15th and see how I did.
:-)
